such a rebel

so, all our IB art stuff is due this friday, like going away either forever or until next fall. its scary, giving up my rwb that i've worked so hard on all year, its like my baby. i'm afraid something is going to happen or something. so, all this week we've been readying this thing called the crb we have to send with our rwb. we have to copy some pages in our rwb and then take pics of some of our art. so we have lots of pics to develop. so for the last 3 days, shima and i have been half sneaking off campus to go pick pictures up. today, we got caught by the police officer. when we told him what we were doing, he was fine with it and just told us we needed a pass next time. there is a definite advantage to being a senior and being in ib art :)
and when our show is done in a few weeks, we will official be done with ib art and just chill and do whatever for the rest of the year.
right now, life in terms of school, and sorta out of school, is rather dull and boring at times, but soon, when it gets to be art show time and then other ap/ib tests then the end of school, it will get more exciting and busy. so for now, i'm just taking the opportunity to chill and relax. :)

progress

though i am still infected with the senioritis bug, i've created a remedy for when i really do need to work. instead of thinking about how much i don't want to do something or how its pointless or that i just want to be done with this and the four months till then be gone. i think about how i do it all for God. if i cant find the motive to do it for myself, i say i'm doing it for God. and it works :) it gives me the motivation i need to continue :)

body not being nice
really tired
senioritis
people think somethings wrong with me
but its nothing more than usual
it got cold again
so i have to stop wearing flipflops
time changed
stress is going down
but apathy is going up
piano teacher died
knew it would happen
but i just keep playing piano
because it's fun and relaxes me
i love talking to my mommy
she makes everything seem ok
even if it isn't quite ok yet
world is still turning
and i'm doing fine
except for the fact that
i just want to sleep
though my body has always made me
extra tired
i feel like im noticing it more now
maybe when i get off the meds
some symptoms will stop
like my sleepyness and stupid joints
but who knows
i might not even get to go off
if my brain goes wacky on the eeg
who knows what will happen
but i know that everything
will work out in the end

update

So... here's what's been going down...

I heard last week that I got one of the full ride scholarships to Lenoir-Rhyne! yay! Though it doesnt include room and board and books and stuff, thats still super awesome! :) My mom figured its worth like 96k. :)

Then last friday Lauren, Caroline and I went to the David Crowder Band Concert at our church. It was amazing. It helped that I knew every song and that the volume didn't make my ears want to explode like at WinterJam. We had seats in front row balcony, which turned out wonderful, because if we were on the main floor we would've had to stand up the whole time, but this way we could sit and watch the happenings and still have fun :)

Saturday and Sunday I went on Road Rules, along with Lauren. It's with our youth group and is sorta like a mock Amazing Race, but just in North Carolina. It rained the whole time, and even started to snow/ice on Sunday, but it was still super fun. Doing all kinds of crazy challenges and running around in the rain and stopping for every coffee shop and welcome sign we see definitely gets the adrenaline up :)

Monday and Tuesday ended up to be snow days. No complaints there, especially since the make-up days for them are after us seniors graduate :) It gave me time to sew my dress for art and to relax and recover from the very full weekend :) And who doesn't love looking out the window and seeing a winter wonderland??? :)

That's about all for now, except that stress keeps threatening to make me crazy, with all the art I have to do in a short time and the english project, and just school in general. Its hard not to focus on all the things I need to get done instead of focusing on one thing at a time...