turkey break!

tomorrow i get to go home! yippee! :D i think its funny that thanksgiving's nickname is turkey day, but we never have turkey. honeybaked ham is way better anyways...

i'm excited cause i don't have class until 1050 tomorrow! yay! and i just have two classes, boring ones, but not hard... then lunch with debord! and then packing and getting ready for maria to come get me :) i cant wait to see my fluffy puff!!! so, as it is getting colder and has been rainy a bit lately... i can feel my body getting a bit more annoyed.. its rather annoying... having my joints pop everytime i do pilates, and my knees not being exceptionally happy. but hey, i can still walk and stuff... and so far a relafen at night is sufficient... so im hoping it stays this way so i dont have to take it twice a day or anything... and. hopefully, when i go to the neuro during xmas break, he'll say i can take my car back after break and can drive! and after thanksgiving break, theres just like two weeks and finals and then xmas break :)

random blurbs.

i officially love physics. well at least my teacher. the subject isn't too bad either... we've finished all the material for this semester. we had our test today. i don't have to go back to class anymore for the rest of the semester. and it's a mon wed fri 820am class too! and if we like our first four test grades, we don't even have to take the final! yippee!! :D

i got my first paycheck for my new job last week. :) i really like my job. it lets me be creative and stuff, since most of the time i have to use my nerdy side doing homework and in class and stuff.... i've got to make a couple arrangements and stuff too. i like it alot. :)

i think i'm really talented. in cutting my ankles while shaving that is... it seems like almost everytime i shave my legs, esp with a new blade, i cut my ankle. either on the side like on the bone or on the back. yesterday i cut my left ankle really bad. like i left a nice red puddle. and when i got dressed (tactfully to not have bloody jeans/underwear) i went to get some toilet paper to sop up my red puddle and try to wipe off some of the blood off my ankle. in doing so, i left bloody footprint puddles everywhere. so i had to clean that off. i eventually got to my room and got all the blood cleaned up. and applied pressure and put it above my heart. it eventually stopped bleeding. when i look at it now that its not bleeding anymore, i cut it pretty good... i'm just gonna say i'm really talented and gonna blame it on the brand spankin new blade. :)

oh. and i got all the classes i want/need for next semester. :) i'll have pretty much the same schedule timewise that i do this semester. except for the first half of the semester i'll have a class that goes a little later on tuesdays and thursdays (but still over before 1) :)

this past weekend everyone went home. i was complaining to my mom thursday night about this. then friday during class she texts asking if i wanna come home. so i went home too :) it was nice to just be home and chill :) i think i officially realized that home is still home, but this is home too. and i dont really live in the boro anymore... but its all good :)

i have friends here at school. i feel like i know lots of people. i feel like i know a few people well. but i feel like i don't really know know anyone. like i don't deeply know them. i'm so used to knowing my best friends really well and talking about like everything with them. like i havent had a deep conversation with anyone... i dont know. its just weird.

so yea. there's my random blurbs.

smorgasbord

so girls weekend this past weekend was amazing. getting to know amazing girls. learning more about God and His measureless love. having lots of fun. just an overall great time. i feel like i sorta missed out some since i didnt sleep in the big room with most of the other girls but i got sleep, and sometimes sleep has to trump social stuff for me... i think sometimes i overreact or whatever as to how much sleep i really need and stuff... but i don't wanna get in trouble with my body for not being nice to it...

lately i've really been wanting to speak french. it's really annoying. especially since i can't really speak it to anyone here cause no one knows it. and i can't take a french class next semester cause it won't fit... grr.

also, lately i've really been wanting a boy. it seems like everyone has one but me. i don't feel like any guy even pays attention to me or cares anything about me. its annoying. cause everyone says i still have time and that its easier without someone else to have to think about and stuff. but still... grr.

so yea. i'm a mix of annoyed, tired, joyful, happy, and blah.

exactly what i need

this is exactly what i need right now.

Anxiety is a result of envisioning the future without Me. So the best defense against worry is staying in communication with Me. When you turn your thoughts toward Me, you can think much more positively. Remember to listen, as well as to speak, making your thoughts a dialogue with Me.

If you must consider upcoming events, follow these rules: 1) Do not linger in the future, because anxieties sprout up like mushrooms when you wander there. 2) Remember the promise of My continual Presence; include Me in any imagery that comes to mind. This mental discipline does not come easily, because you are accustomed to being god of your fantasies. However, the reality of My Presence with you, now and forevermore, outshines any fantasy you could ever imagine.

That's from Jesus Calling by Sarah Young... :)