falling

So. I'm letting myself fall. into God's arms and plans. I'm still going to try hard and all that but my life is in His hands. Since yesterday and I decided conciously to fall, I've felt really happy and just relaxed and stuff, for no apparent reason. I was thinking while we were singing at Core, 'well if i'm falling, then i need to be crying and totally sad and stuff'. Well, i think I'm ready to fall, if that makes sense. I tired with how things are and want to change. I'm ready for God to take over. So when I fall, I'm not putting up a fight on the way, I'm ready and willing to take on whatever comes my way. It's this wonderful release and I just hope it continues forever, since we really are just continuely falling. :)