I usually take 5 pills a day, 2 in the morning, 3 at night. Because I'm all in the clear now, I'm starting to taper. Tonight I took 2 in the morning and 2 at night! :D I'll do this for a week, then the next week will be 1 and 2 for a week, then 1 and 1 for a week, then 0 and 1 for a week, then none! :)
It's really exciting to actually be tapering now, but it's also really scary because who knows what will happen. Everything could go fine and I won't really even notice. Or I could feel awful. Or I could feel fine then have a seizure. Or I could feel awful then have a seizure. There's no way to know. So, the only things I can really do is make sure I take care of myself and pray that everything will work out in the end. I would definitely love it if I could not depend on meds anymore, but if God's plan is not that, I will def be disappointed, but theres nothing I can do about it. God is in charge. And there's nothing I can do that will make him like or love me more, so I just have to have faith. This whole epilepsy stuff is really just a big test of faith. :)
I just hope this is the beginning of the end of Amy on drugs...
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