smorgasbord

so girls weekend this past weekend was amazing. getting to know amazing girls. learning more about God and His measureless love. having lots of fun. just an overall great time. i feel like i sorta missed out some since i didnt sleep in the big room with most of the other girls but i got sleep, and sometimes sleep has to trump social stuff for me... i think sometimes i overreact or whatever as to how much sleep i really need and stuff... but i don't wanna get in trouble with my body for not being nice to it...

lately i've really been wanting to speak french. it's really annoying. especially since i can't really speak it to anyone here cause no one knows it. and i can't take a french class next semester cause it won't fit... grr.

also, lately i've really been wanting a boy. it seems like everyone has one but me. i don't feel like any guy even pays attention to me or cares anything about me. its annoying. cause everyone says i still have time and that its easier without someone else to have to think about and stuff. but still... grr.

so yea. i'm a mix of annoyed, tired, joyful, happy, and blah.