it's so precious.
i feel like i don't have any left.
so here's my schedule: Monday:Piano, Tuesday:? might become swimming at the Y, Wednesday:Small Group, Thursday:Either NAHS or Core team, Friday:CROSS club, Saturday:Swimming and homework, Sunday:Nursery and Core. I feel like everythings so full. I have something everyday. Even though during the week with school they never last any longer than til 5, it still feels like I don't have a life anymore. And all this extra committed time is forcing me to, more often than not, go to bed at 10 or later. My body is not enjoying this. I'm a very sleep-needy person. I know that this is just how life is, but I really enjoyed the laybackness of summer. I don't want things to change. I can't quit piano, I can't quit Core, I can't quit small group, I have to have some exercise, so I can't quit swimming. And with NAHS, I'm the secretary, so can't really quit that. And I feel like if I stop going to Nursery or Core team, I'd be shunned or whatever. And now my mom wants me to go swimming twice a week, not just once. I thought junior year was supposed to be the hardest, not senior year.
Soon though, I'll hear from Lenoir-Rhyne, which will be good.
I just don't know how to work my time so that I get everything done, and still have some chill time left and not feel pressured. It's not like I don't enjoy anything I'm doing...
And school... it just feels more like a waste of time than anything. I'm not really learning all that much, at least don't feel like it. And half the time, I just sit there and think, man I could be doing something much more productive.
I don't know. It's bothering me.
If only there was more time... :/