i dont want to be selfish, but...

so. i think i've started my last few posts with so. sorry if thats annoying. not that anyone reads this anyways... anyways. i don't know about you, but i like to feel loved and wanted. i feel like i constantly give to other people. i wait for them. i'm friendly. i send them secret sister things. i go out of my way to be nice and kind and loving to them. not trying to be self-righteous or whatever or say that i'm miss wonderful 24/7. but in general, i think i'm pretty giving. so. understandably, i'd like to get things in return. i can't keep giving and get nothing back. i'll end up with nothing. i just feel like i give and never get anything in return. i say something nice and encouraging and they just say thanks. i send them cool things in their mailbox and i get one thing. i feel forgotten. i feel unloved. i feel unwanted. i don't want to be selfish, but i'd like to get something back. i just feel like i give everything and get nothing in return. i know this isn't true all the time, but it sure feels like it. :/