Sunday, June 27

another entry...

got another full shift yesterday. another girl came but was in the back most of the time and we stayed busy so i got to stay til almost 530! i like busy days at work. it's like a challenge. having to check everyone out and answer questions. sometimes it gets stressful, esp when we're running out or have run out of something and whoever else is working isn't moving fast to get it or we can't find it. after getting home and finally changing out of my hot sweaty clothes, i just layed around and ate. then we had dgroup. we chilled on our balcony and went through the book and talked and stuff. they got me pretty colored daisies and a yellow balloon for my birthday :) then we went to ben & jerry's and then chilled/shared in the village. oh and i did my laundry too. except i hit the wrong button for the dryer and turned the bottom one on when my clothes were in the top one. and left them there for like 4 hrs while we were gone and at dgroup. so i came back to get my dry clothes and they were still wet... so stayed up a bit later than i'd like because of that and i was sorting through brittany's music. :)
today has been church, chill/nap/snack, and band practice soon. hopefully it'll go on as planned this week... after that is more chill time then prayer and outreach. the outreach is scheduled til 1am, so we'll see when i get to sleep...
having weird guilty feelings about my birthday. i don't make it a big deal but i want others to. it's not even til tomorrow but i already feel like it'll just be an added random sidenote to the day and no one really cares. but then i feel bad for wanting people to make it special because then that's selfish. and it's not like it's an exciting birthday either... 19 seems like its pretty boring. you're not legal like you are when you turn 18 or 21 and you're not officially out of teens like when you turn 20. so i'm having mixed weird feelings. i'm just pretty much sure people will forget/not care and i guess i'm mentally preparing for that. i've come to expect little out of people so that i'm surprised when they do something exciting/good. i know that sounds bad, but it saves me a lot of crappy feelings when i think they're gonna do something great and nothing happens. i dont know.

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